ignore this

i dont know wat hurts more

-
And I hate how much I love you boy
I can’t stand how much I need you
And I hate how much I love you boy
But I just can’t let you go
And I hate that I love you so..
-

the only thing to get better is to stay away
really.
i just cant imagine when i have to bring myself together, pretending to be doing something i actually want.
its going to be like on alcohol,, you keep whatever thats hidden hidden, yet show some sign of it being hidden.
i din survived.like i promised.
its still plain tormenting.
have it reach the climax? if yes, i just hope that everything will be over really soon.
it had been a year
god damm it
i could have forgive but 'irritant' has prove to be just a normal one
nothing special
maybe it was not even once.not even a bit.

sonata in C
the many movements.from the simple,normal 1st to the variations.exciting,sweet, the teasing, the fun then the wrong moves.
it changed to minor.melancholy.silent torture.the doubts
and then it was back to the original, just something diff that can never be changed.searching for resemblance.trying to get back to the beginnning, at the same time,making sure no more wrong moves.
it stayed that way ever since

i shouldn care seriously.why should i ??

ignore this

i dont know wat hurts more

-
And I hate how much I love you boy
I can’t stand how much I need you
And I hate how much I love you boy
But I just can’t let you go
And I hate that I love you so..
-

the only thing to get better is to stay away
really.
i just cant imagine when i have to bring myself together, pretending to be doing something i actually want.
its going to be like on alcohol,, you keep whatever thats hidden hidden, yet show some sign of it being hidden.
i din survived.like i promised.
its still plain tormenting.
have it reach the climax? if yes, i just hope that everything will be over really soon.
it had been a year
god damm it
i could have forgive but 'irritant' has prove to be just a normal one
nothing special
maybe it was not even once.not even a bit.

sonata in C
the many movements.from the simple,normal 1st to the variations.exciting,sweet, the teasing, the fun then the wrong moves.
it changed to minor.melancholy.silent torture.the doubts
and then it was back to the original, just something diff that can never be changed.searching for resemblance.trying to get back to the beginnning, at the same time,making sure no more wrong moves.
it stayed that way ever since

i shouldn care seriously.why should i ??

a fucking B.not B+. but B.
for the blardy macroeconomics which was the last paper and i have many days to study.

it pulls the gpa down.

alright.am posting here for the last time.or i think i shall leave this place to erm bitch bout my life.the not so good part.haha.
http://anyiyong.blogspot.com

there's just too many things inside here aldi.haha.let go anyi.let go.move on..

for the last post,
today..ahh..enchanted with vyna,arafat and iqbal
it was pretty until the kings and queens ball
arafat: the guy looked like he is wearing baju kedah.my dad has one.

swt

potong stim.if not,its good.fairy tales dont have happy ending.but..haha.
*dreams*
kk.
i think i am more suitable to be realistic.haha.

anyi
and i dont look like small kid with short hair! no way!

haha.am back in msia!!
the first thing ppl say and i mean everyone..they say i put on weight.and singapore suppose to not have nice good food.
lots of changes.but before that..pics!!
last week steamboat:
(fri)

haha.i love my 'love-hate' shirt.

soonleong(cheras),me,yinmun(cheras),raymond(melacca),puiee(bu),siewloong(ipoh),yeanchan(taman sea!!)

a clearer pic.

andrew the nike jogging addict


the prawns i fried.aha.the food i cooked tasted the best,right??!! haha

oreo!!

oreo with mustard.haha.and they went shopping without me.sigh.my last paper was on tues.

tues!! heavenly.we went orchard to shop.then taka for jap food.

no wonder ppl say i put on weight.haha.kk.i know wat to say already.
i was pampered.seriously.roomie bought me awfully choc cakes,raisins,maggi goreng when i was studying.

singapore's maggi goreng with tomato ketchup is diff.
yinmun,daryl,raymond and soonleong bought me m&n,waffle sausage and the octopus ball for supper..haha.and cakes.

pampered wei.they called me the 'group baby'.thats why.am the youngest but i think i am more mature than half of them there.
haha.thankz a million lots wei!! study sux but with supper provided i feel loved.

having brownie for dessert in orchard.ahh..
after exam feeling is so so so great.and singapore orchard with the christmas deco is so so beautiful..
how i wish i will be there for christmas.anyone??

orchard road already with chrismas trees
we went bugis after that.walked around then supper at geylang.
xingying,jean and yongseng (fellow maths coursemates singaporean) brought us around.haha.

wed,i came back.to be greeted with 'anyi,why so fat??!!'
haha.sis cut her hair.had braces.my house upstairs flooring was changed including my room.and my bathroom was renovated!! all without me knowin.so outdated.
bakkutteh for dinner then off we went to visit my lil cute small people.

still the same.haha.miss him lots.so so cute.he started swimming lessons with my youngest sis.

and this is the new baby cousin

baby boy.i wish his name is joel,but his brother thinks its too common.

mom and b.

i bought her panda biscuit!!

we have a koala bear too..such sweetie
sis told me,this lil girl reason for not joining the bro and my youngest sis for swimming lessons: 'can die wan ar!!'


(thurs)
hmm..chrisdaughtry seems to have a proper 'over you' mv now.or am i outdated again?
watching tv is nice.and i cant seem to play piano already.
i slept for 13 hours.bed's so so nice.sorry yinmun if u are reading this before u r back.
had rojak in the afternoon.but..

kk.its raining and we had to eat it in the busstop.but it wasnt hygienic..with raindrops into our food.


shouldn have go out this afternoon.
i cut my hair in the end.all because hsuzhen wanted to try the new salon.in the end,she din managed to cut but i did.
dont think i will ever have long hair again.haha.
pasarmalam at night and i bumped into rachel!!! aha.the few things that we MUST do when we get back from sg is to pm!!

rachel the girl who camwhore ALOT who's going to US with me next year.

kk.to those who haven seen me yet.i know i know.from the pics,i am fat!!
but yea.wont be here for long.
i can hear hongkong calling for me.disneyland and i will help daryl to bash up mickey mouse since he said dunno why he hated mickey mouse since he was a kid.mickey' irritating.
yupyup.then back to sg on the 11th of dec for camp!!

anyi
homesweethome
lazying around with the remote control and the tv is fun.i hate 2 hours plus of csi,2 hours of pinkpanthar.haha.
will update soon.